Things In Mind

There are so many things in my mind lately, a lot of things happened, bad things, all of it! I need to write something out, I’ll try to write … but it might not be in order.

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I was browsing thru the internet just now and I come across Valerie’s blog when I type Gary’s name, I don’t really know Valerie that well thou’ … saw her a few times in Uni and know her from Facilitator Induction 2009/2010, the part I remember the most is the time she drive me back to Cendekiawan apartment from Administration Building half way thru the induction, I tried so hard to hold back my tears from flowing down like river and it hurts a lot doing that. Well I read thru’ what Valerie wrote in her blog, it remind me so much of my own brother. One month before Gary, was my brother who leaves us. My brother and Gary are like almost the same, the same characteristics, friendly, talented and all the other good values, you name it ! But the question that arises in my mind is … why must they both leave so fast? Gary is 22 and my brother is 16 … ! They are loved by many …. ! and they both leave this world in a very strange and unexplainable way … my brother is a healthy young boy just like how Gary is … they are active … sports … tennis, swimming, basketball, marathon … and lots more …

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Maybe lately u notice a lot of post in my blog about Gary. Well Gary is a friend of mine. I get to know him during my study in Uniten. We took the same Moral Studies 2 class together about 2 years ago and we run the same project which … well involve the whole class … he was the leader for the class at that time and I get to work with him when I was designing logo for our moral project T-Shirt. We became friends after that. We didn’t talk much after class usually because we were both busy with studies and other classes to attend to but we still manage to chit-chat for awhile when ever we meet each other in campus. I meet him in campus a few times this semester but I was not in the mood to talk to him due to the things that happened to my brother lately, so basically it was just “hi” and “bye”.

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A lot of my friends ask me about the facilitator thing, they ask why I redraw myself from the program half way thru the induction … usually I don’t back down myself from things that I already do halfway … but this time is different, I have to leave … !! You all should know why by now … !!

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My brother’s album and song are still in progress … I’ll update everyone with the latest information from time to time … and hopefully it will be release to public soon … I really do hope to see his album in stores.

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There is still so many things that is in my brain, but it’s quite hard for me to write it out now, words don’t seems to come right … !! Feelings are really hard to be put into words … ! Oh yah … recently about Michael Jackson and Yasmin Ahmad’s death … I didn’t comment or say anything or ever grief … why? Please !!! They are no one to me !! King of Pop so what ? I already drown the town with my tears due to my brother and my aunt … no more tears can come out any more !! Sigh ~ only in 6 months time …. I lost one of my Aunt, my Brother and a Friend ! What is wrong with this world ? Like what I always say … “The World Is A Fucked Up Place”

Posted Date: 7 August 2009
Posted Time: 3.58AM