The Music in Me

Sabi bring home a guitar just now … classic kapok … faded seasons … I pick it up … place my fingers in order while holding a pick on my hand … I strum the first stroke … my heart hurts … ! The sound of the guitar reminds me of my brother … !! I look at the guitar as I put down the pick … holding the G chord as I begin to pluck … my heart hurt again … it remind me of my brother … !! At home … he is the best … he play guitar, piano, drum and keyboard very well … he is the one who always make the house noisy and loud … he is the only one who play song beside my bed while I am sleeping and wake me up with the loud distortion … he is the only one who keep shouting at me in order to push me in writing his lyrics for his new song … he is the only one who always make funny and weird sound from his guitar while I was changing my cloths in my room while he standing outside the room but with the Roland Amp inside the room and a guitar on his hand !! My life is music … and music is my life … my brother is my music … music has become apart of me … we write song together … go jamming together … play song together … we record songs together ... we sing together … we even talk music together and make weird things in music together … that’s the reason we name our self The Pirates ! So now that he is gone … I can’t listen to music or play any instrument anymore … it will only remind me of him and hurt me in return … ! I can’t even listen to his song in his album as it will make me break down in tears … ! His self title and self sponsored album will be release soon … I don’t understand why we still release his album as he is not here anymore? But I am still doing it for him because he is my brother and that is his dream … to be one of the best musicians in this world, to perform with stars around the world …!! He was on his way … he was living his dream … performing with good musician around town … but it hurt me as he has to leave that early …!! I am lost … I can’t play instrument anymore … each note hurt me more then the other … ! Now I don’t even know what I should do with the 4 guitars, the 2 amps, the drum set, the keyboard and all the others equipment and effect back at home … It hurts … and it hurts … it really does … !

Posted Date : 19 July 2009
Posted Time : 12.13pm